Stress Has Meaning

By Meredith Gardner | January 17, 2021

When was the last time you felt stressed? Stress is not only an emotion, but a physiological response our body experiences when it senses danger. It stirs us into protective action to run, fight, or freeze. It probably wasn’t that long ago that you experienced it – so congratulations! Stress is actually good for you:…

It’s On the Horizon

By Meredith Gardner | January 10, 2021

For 8 years I was house-hungry. At some point during each of those years I cycled through a pity-party-tantrum of life isn’t fair, I hate renting, my life sucks. The recession of 2007 hit exactly as my husband was switching jobs and we moved from Colorado Springs to Grand Junction, Colorado. We were unable to…

A Wave of Grief

By Meredith Gardner | January 3, 2021

I bought a planner for 2021. For several reasons I haven’t used a planner for at least 20 years; there are too many cute ones and it’s hard to pick one.  I couldn’t justify the cost when a combination of a wall calendar and my phones’ calendar seemed to work fine. And then what if…

Courage in the Driver’s Seat

By Meredith Gardner | December 28, 2020

During the last several months of her life, my Mom received phone calls and visits from many friends. The two that stood out to me the most were Ruthanne, her childhood best friend, and Sharon, her cousin. These two were at the top of her list to contact when she passed away. The day she…

Do It Anyway

By Meredith Gardner | December 21, 2020

This Blog post almost didn’t happen. Due to all the Christmas preparations going on and a short visit from my youngest brother, I almost forgot to write it. When I did remember, there was a lot of resistance from my brain. ” I don’t want to do that.” “I don’t know what to write.” “It’s…

Get Used to Different

By Meredith Gardner | December 13, 2020

Tonight as a family we watched “Christmas with The Chosen.” The Chosen is a wonderful series about the disciples Christ chooses to follow Him when His ministry begins.  I’ve watched the entire first Season, some episodes twice. But it was in this Christmas special that I noticed the repeated use of this line: “Get Used…

The Next Important Thing

By Meredith Gardner | December 7, 2020

It’s good to be home again. Well, kind of. You know when you’ve been away from home for awhile and it seems everything needs to be done when you return? ALL the bathrooms need cleaning, the dirty laundry you brought home with you, the stack of mail to go through – and the empty fridge…

This is So Different

By Meredith Gardner | November 29, 2020

I have been away from my home in Colorado for almost 3 weeks. During that time, stress has often been my companion. I drove to SLC as soon as my brother called to tell me that Mom’s condition was quickly declining. That was November 11th. I was able to care for her and be with…

Distributing Memories

By Meredith Gardner | November 23, 2020

I vowed to never miss writing a new blog post each Sunday. And then last Sunday, my beautiful Mom passed away. Writing those words and reading back over them feels like I’m writing about someone else. But I’m not. Someday I’ll write more about the events of that Sunday. But not yet. What started 2.5…

Hard Decisions AND…

By Meredith Gardner | November 8, 2020

Mom is increasingly uncomfortable. Hospice has provided the drugs that will help her.  The nurse said we need to take over her medications, that mom isn’t remembering to take them regularly. So while my brother and his wife are at work, I’m on call to decide when is the right time to give her the…